Todays another day when I should be feeling great yet I am feeling sad. I know the reasons why – not enough sleep, mastitis brewing and the ever present postnatal depression . Unfortunately knowing the reasons doesn’t make me less sad, less grumpy or more patient. I look at a photo of day gone past wishing I could go back there.
All the doubts and negativity start to creep back in. The feelings of being trapped, being alone and being overwhelmed. I know I should be trying to spend time with the boys, distracting myself or getting something done. But everything seems to take more energy and more confidence than I have.
Things could be worse – my cup could be empty not just part filled. I will chalk this up to being another not great day. While I watch Finn learning to stand I’ll cross my fingers for tomorrow.